Throwing my life away

[Y-Less]

A lots been going on in my life-- most of which, sadly, I can't write about here (at this juncture) It’s time to lay it all out there on the table, Because I feel to write it from me away.

My life for the past 14 months has been one of confusion and fear. Let me fill you in. Sometimes I’ll get caught up in sadness, and it makes me mad at myself, because it sucks the energy out of everything and doesn’t do me or anyone else any good. When I can’t “snap out of it” as quickly as I’d like, I just try to say busy, focused and moving ahead., But you can't solve anything with it, Sadly.. I've found a new job since Febuary 2008, because my old job was not good enough and I made no money except for the €103 once a month (How did I ever managed that to pay my rent?).

Now I do work at a family company runs by a father and 3 sons that has 9 employees in the farm, What we do is fixing Transmissionparts for the cars and big trucks, I do not touch any of those things, Im just doing my job as been usefull to do work for anybody there if they ask me something.

A very other thing is that im sick of people telling me what I need to do, dammit, Im not 8 years old anymore for god sack, Sometimes I really feel I need to left my country and build my life somewhere else, But my fear agian is that I im so young, It makes me sad...

Mhh more to come if I feel the way..

[depthnerd]

More to Japan and live under the street lights. You'll still be better off than half of the Americans if you do that.

[themanofthedark]

Y-Less -

if you truly and honestly are thinking of leaving your country, I'm going to suggest the States, or England. you have sufficient knowledge of English, so you will be able to communicate.. and what do you do exactly, what are you good at?

[Y-Less]

Originally Posted by depthnerd

More to Japan and live under the street lights. You'll still be better off than half of the Americans if you do that.

Well, sometimes I do ask myself if im still usefull for this world? You know what I mean?

Originally Posted by themanofthedark

Y-Less -

if you truly and honestly are thinking of leaving your country, I'm going to suggest the States, or England. you have sufficient knowledge of English, so you will be able to communicate.. and what do you do exactly, what are you good at?

Im used to study computer/servers/ networks and big computer plants.. But didn't finish it so I did say goodbye to my diploma's for it

[themanofthedark]

do you have family that can help you financially?

[Y-Less]

No, I do not have family here anymore. My mother and father broke up when I was 4. Im now alone here.

[themanofthedark]

thats really unfortunate, I'm sorry.. where is the closest family you have? aunts, uncles.. maybe you could ask them if you could go there, work, get some money, continue education.. go to a different country?

[IphoneTony]

come to new york area its just dandy here... actually n.c is the place to go... Cost of living is the best right now for the type of pay and housing prices. Do you have any means of making a change to another country. Im sure its a long process but in the long run might be worth it

[Y-Less]

Originally Posted by themanofthedark

thats really unfortunate, I'm sorry.. where is the closest family you have? aunts, uncles.. maybe you could ask them if you could go there, work, get some money, continue education.. go to a different country?

As far I know I got no family here.. No aunts, uncles and so on so on...

Originally Posted by IphoneTony

come to new york area its just dandy here... actually n.c is the place to go... Cost of living is the best right now for the type of pay and housing prices. Do you have any means of making a change to another country. Im sure its a long process but in the long run might be worth it

Okay, How do I start going to make that change? Where do I start.. Is huge to take this step?

[Bone]

im not shurr if i should try and give advice but do i want wish you the best of luck.